Body, Mind, Soul

Goals Can Feel Impossible

November 18

Picture this. It’s a Saturday morning. I feel some nerves, but I’m eager to start the day. It’s a big day!

Today I have decided to get rid of my caffeine dependence and plan my life. (Hah!)

I make myself a pot of decaf and some green tea (c’mon, cut me some slack), I eat my smoothie like its an ice cream sundae, I pack my bag and I head to the library.

I walk inside and breath in the smell of books. This is the place to be inspired. I wander the rows of books to set my mind in the right place. Then, I walk the perimeter of the library to find my perfect spot. Close to the corner but so close that I’m cornered.

I find it. The perfect cubicle. The cubicles immediately surrounding me are empty as is the desk directly connected to mine. I pull out my laptop, plug it in and arrange my green tea, water bottle, book and pencil around my laptop.


I start to read and write. Goals for relationships, friends, career, health and faith. I’m on a roll!

The lack of real caffeine kicks in. Fatigue. Headache. Focus!

Then a boy sits across from me, invading my space. He smiles. I smile back. Grr.

Then the heat kicks on and there’s a subtle rattling noise. Click. Click click. Click. Click click.

Ugh. I pull out my headphones and put on some music. The sounds of smooth jazz fills my ears, but…

Click. Click click. Click. Click click.

Then a hand reaches over the divider with a piece of paper. Uhhh…? In scratchy handwriting it reads, “Hey, how are you?” I look at it, smile at him and pass it back shaking my head.

Does this kid know I’m twice his age? Is it not obvious that I’m WORKING?

Full caffeine withdrawal has set in.

Click. Click click. Click. Click click.

I give up. I pack up my bag and head home to take a nap. Goals half written. Life half planned.

This was a few months ago, and I still haven’t finished those goals. Michael Hyatt was not kidding when he said you have to do this in one sitting.

I know goals are important. Don’t we all? But that doesn’t make setting them any easier. As things are becoming more and more clear now, I’m planning a time to plan before the start of the new year. I’m planning to dedicate a whole day with coffee.

I’ll let you know when I figure it out.

Do you set goals? Do you stick with the goals you set? Do you have a formal system for setting, checking in and updating goals?

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  • Reply Suman Kher November 19 at 2:46 pm

    I don’t think a caffeine deprived day was quite right for setting goals! 🙂 I have a lot of to-do lists. But I’m also getting better at setting long term goals for myself. I have already decided to reduce my wardrobe by 50% next year. I have already stopped shopping for some kind of clothes. I also have work related goals which’ll take months but I’ll know that I am getting there.

    • Reply November 21 at 8:05 pm

      Definitely not my best decision 😉 Way to go with those goals! And it sounds like you’re implementing them already too!

  • Reply Kaela Cornwell November 21 at 10:37 pm

    Goals are such a challenge! I am so excited to have discovered you’re writing a blog; I love it! I started getting serious about my health a year ago with the goal of losing baby weight and overcoming lingering postpartum anxiety. I found that each month returning to my goals (written down so I couldn’t forget or cheat!) helped to keep me focused and to evaluate how far I’ve come. I can’t wait to learn more tips here for keeping as healthy as can be!

    P.S. I’ve been caffeine free for a year now, if it’s a goal of yours it can be done!

    • Reply November 22 at 3:21 pm

      It’s so good to hear from you Kaela! Way to go! That’s inspiring for me. When my health leveled out and I started to feel good, I stopped trying to keep improving. I’ve just been maintaining ever since. I’m living healthier than I was before, but I know I’ve lost something by not working to move forward. I’m excited to share what’s working for me already and what new things I learn. I’m also excited to hear what’s working for other people! I would be interested to learn how you overcame your challenges postpartum. So happy for you and your sweet family 🙂

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